Ever evolving Pokemon & journey towards my final form

01-01-2026

As my life passes me by I wanna live a thousand lives before I turn into dust. Ferrari CEO, bum under bridge, drunk artist losing mind at 3am, fighter chasing purpose, a drug addict junkie chasing god, hangover writer, monk, outlaw, prophet, player, family man, mountain hermit, city wolf, beach bum

I want to experience the entire full spectrum of being a human. The beauty, ugly, homeless, filth, genius, success, failure, ups, downs, poor, rich etc. this is the true human experience and to be able to live many life times within one lifetime. I have shifted and quantum leap so many time lines in the simulation. This is what being a 1 of 1 main character is? Here is a list of past lives I have accomplished so far in 39 years worth of life.

1. Pokemon trading card game master  

2. ⁠restaurants worker bus boy, server, manager, dish washer  

3. ⁠pro video gamer (halo 1)  

4. ⁠professional poker player  

5. ⁠drug dealer  

6. ⁠Marijuana farm owner  

7. ⁠fugitive on the run  

8. ⁠yoga studio owner  

9. ⁠super food company owner  

10. ⁠vegan meal prep service owner  

11. ⁠professional sports better  

12. ⁠bookie  

13. ⁠poker home game operator  

14. ⁠a wannabe professional dancer  

15. ⁠crypto trader  

16. Professional skateboarder  

17. ⁠burning man (burner)  

18. ⁠Magic the gathering professional  

19. ⁠Pyramid Scheme Marketer  

20. Autistic Neanderthal  

21. Jail inmate for 6 months  

22. Chinese food delivery driver  

23. Nail salon owner done  

24. Professional side-quester  

25. Laid in bed paralyzed 2 weeks and relearned how to walk  

26. Mastermind things to collect brief case money  

27. Big time conspiracy theorists  

28. Raver (shuffle dancer)  

29. Functional mushroom gummy bear owner  

30. Event coordinator for Las Vegas shufflers

31. Event coordinator Heaven on earth charity  

32. Geologist cause of how many times I hit rock bottom  

33. Vegan for 3 years  

After reading this list I feel like I am 420 years old in simulation experience points. I know I have left out a lot of my different lives, but if I was a gambling man i would conclude my final form has not been reached. I have many more lifetimes to reach in this one life.

As I move through these forms, I realize none of these lives were random. Every version of me came from real pressure, real environments, and real consequences.

The bus boy, the dishwasher, the delivery driver, and the jail inmate were survival forms. Those lives taught me humility, patience, and how the world treats you when you have no leverage. They showed me what it feels like to be invisible, replaceable, and one bad decision away from being written off.

The poker player, sports bettor, bookie, crypto trader, and home game operator were risk forms. Those lives sharpened my instincts and taught me probability, discipline, and emotional control. They also showed me how easy it is to confuse confidence with certainty, and how quickly ego can turn skill into destruction if you stop respecting variance.

The drug dealer, marijuana farm owner, fugitive, and conspiracy theorist were edge-of-the-map forms. Those lives taught me awareness, paranoia, pattern recognition, and how systems actually work behind the curtain. They also taught me the cost of living outside the rules, and how freedom without structure eventually turns into a different kind of cage.

The business owner lives, yoga studio, super food company, vegan meal prep, nail salon, mushroom gummy bears, and event coordination were creation forms. Those versions of me learned leadership, responsibility, logistics, and how hard it is to turn ideas into something real. They taught me that building is slower than dreaming, and that holding a team, a brand, or a mission together requires consistency, not just vision.

The dancer, skateboarder, raver, Burning Man version, and Las Vegas shuffle scene were expression forms. Those lives taught me movement, community, joy, and how to exist in the moment. They showed me how powerful it is to feel alive in your body, and how art, rhythm, and shared experience can heal parts of you that money and logic never touch.

The Pokémon, Magic the Gathering, Halo gamer, and professional side-quester versions were system-mastery forms. They trained my brain to recognize rules, loops, metas, and exploits. They taught me how to learn fast, adapt faster, and see life itself as a game of choices, timing, and positioning.

The two weeks paralyzed and relearning how to walk was a reset form. That life stripped everything down to breath, movement, and gratitude. It taught me how fragile progress is, and how nothing should be taken for granted, not your body, not your time, not your momentum.

As I reach newer forms, the shifts feel different. They’re quieter. Heavier. Less about chasing another identity and more about integrating the ones that already exist. I don’t feel the need to prove I can survive anymore. I already know I can. Now the question is how I choose to live with what I’ve learned.

51 years from now when i am 90 years old i will not be able to guess what my final form will be. It feels like being able to carry the dishwasher, the inmate, the poker player, the business owner, the dancer, the builder, and the survivor all at once without letting any single one hijack the wheel. It feels like knowing when to take risks and when to protect peace. When to build. When to rest. When to play. When to walk away.

I still have so many more lifetimes to live in 51 years of life. But now they feel intentional. Like chapters instead of chaos. Like each new form isn’t an escape from the past, but an upgrade that includes it. My next form is the Fog Father LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!